Meg Is Bad At.

Why do we have to be consistent to succeed?

How do you build up consistency? What do you do when you stumble or stop?

There must be a psychological reason for why I struggle to be consistent. I would imagine it has something to do with fear – that’s a pretty deep-seated, strong emotion that basically runs my life. Maybe you could say I’m consistent in my inconsistency?

I wonder if maybe I’m not practiced enough in pushing through. It could very well be a matter of discipline, which is something I believe I lack. 

If I were to practice being consistent with a task, a chore, a hobby, what would I choose to start with? What would my metric of consistency be?

I recently found myself fascinated with Emily Dickinson. Her poetry is renowned for its rule-breaking, and while I admire her greatly for expressing herself in a time when women were expected to only be subservient to men, I struggle to grasp the deeper meanings behind her words. So I went to my local library and checked out a book of her poetry in the hopes that I could dig a little deeper. I think I want to set a goal of reflecting on a set number of poems or pages of poetry to begin a consistent habit.

I’m also ignoring the elephant in the room – I don’t have a consistent practice of creating content for Meg Is Bad At. There are things I want to do but at the same time I feel scared to show myself doing them, and I don’t allow myself the time or creative space to consider how I might go about doing those things. I make excuses not to stick to a routine that could work for me, and I don’t look ahead to the future to consider what the benefits of being disciplined would be. Why can’t I change my approach? What’s wrong with me?

Trying not to panic about not having my rhythm down just yet. Wondering how people get the hang of this. Imagining my life if I could just get it together. Trying not to beat myself up about it. Wondering, imagining, ruminating, over-thinking… I just need to sleep. 

I’d love to know – how do you stay consistent in your life? How do you push through any fear or doubts or lack of motivation? Is that something you deal with? Please leave a comment with any words of advice or encouragement!